Libur for Labour

Last Monday was a Labour Day, people was having their long weekend. Orang Cina yang seharusnya mengganti lantai rumah saya memboloskan diri, setelah berjanji sebelumnya akan datang. Ia meninggalkan debu setebal-tebal salami di seluruh rumah (typically Asian?), sehingga saya pun memutuskan meninggalkan rumah untuk berjalan-jalan ke countryside (good reason, huh?)

35 menit berkendara, mendaki gunung lewati lembah, melintasi rumah-rumah pertanian mewah yang sebagian besar dijadikan tempat peristirahatan oleh pemiliknya, sekalian iseng-iseng jualan lemon dan telur ayam, saya pun mengunjungi 2 winery.

Di tempat ini saya dapat mencicipi berbagai jenis wine dan menikmati biscuit butter gratisan, sambil belanja (yeah!!!) berbagai pernak-pernik lucu, buku-buku masak, serta piknik di tepi sungai atau di lahan pertanian bersama biri-biri gembul berbulu empuk (dengan kondisi kalau langit cerah dan tak ada pup si mbek di sekitarnya, tentu!).

What a refreshing! Saya pun lupa akan kejengkelan saya pada si orang Cina.

I like you when you look at me like that

"What are you looking at me?"

"...I am absorbing you."

"Huh?"

"Your smile, your laugh, the way you hold your head with hands, your hair playing with wind.."

"Wow. You are absorbing everything!"

"Yes."

"Like a sponge."

"Nope. Like a black hole absorbing star look into the solitary light. And so it became a crystal star with a holy light around."

Black Out

I was lost on a dark road, suddenly from nowhere a light spot has appeared in front of me on the ground.

I started to walk and walk again until I lost any notion of time, my space being reduced to my lighting guide.

I must have fallen asleep because when I reopened my eyes to light... You were there.

Your glance plunged into mine; it is then I saw my light still flashing in your eyes.

Persistent as I'm, I didn't want to let go the providencial light, so I did concentrate all my attention to your absorptive sparkling eyes and started diving into fields of your dream.

Everything was emotive colors changing contrast when I tried to capture their subtleity, the light spot was constantly changing colors and changing all sort of shapes, here are a running horse, there a smiling sunflower, than 1000 of smiling sunflowers, and road appeared running in the middle of this smiling field, happiness was pouring from my eyes.

Suddenly a dark spot appear on the road... But my eyes were just too full of emotion and I left the dark spot, continuing its run into the side ditch, when i'm now running on the colorful road, distributing colorful smiles... For eternity.

Helpless

Akhir-akhir ini saya sangat lelah...

Lelah dengan pikiran saya yang 'sibuk' dan berlarian tak tentu arah, seperti bubaran layar tancep di Pelabuhan Ratu yang memutar film 'Babi Ngepet'.

Saya takut.

Saya takut saya tak punya waktu lagi.

Saya takut telah salah mengambil keputusan.

Saya takut menyakiti orang.

Saya takut kehilangan keluarga saya tanpa sempat membahagiakan mereka.

Saya takut waktu saya habis.

Saya takut sekali...

Tolong saya.

Poetry for Lobster?

You... lost and lonely

You... strangest angel

Dancing in the deepest ocean

Twisting in the water

You're just like a dream

Speechless

"I don’t remember having ever met someone in my life I felt so close so quickly. Maybe we know each other from another time somewhere else in this Universe or another one."

"Really? Good thought."

"Maybe one of us was yin and the other yang, unity of opposites, heaven and earth absorbed by their appealing difference!"

"Maybe I was a queen and you're my slave, Oh no, that’s too kinky,… Maybe I was a sinner and you’re a saint. Hmm… This is better!"

"Some slave have married their queen.. They have escaped free of any concept in the cover of night into the desert only guided by their mutual passions and the golden track left by the shooting stars…"

"…..."

What should I say?

I'm in love...

Entah telah berapa lama saya kehilangan perasaan ini.

Jatuh cinta sama hujan.

Biasanya, bila hujan menjelang, yang ada di benak saya adalah perasaan-perasaan negative. Takut melihat cacing keluar dari tanah, takut jemari kaki dan sepatu tersayang kotor kena percikan noda kecoklatan, takut macet, takut banjir, takut alergi, takut dingin… sigh... Pokoknya saya sebal banget dengan hujan.

Tapi pagi ini, di tengah-tengah kemacetan Jakarta, saya sungguh menikmati titik-titik air hujan yang mendarat manis di kaca mobil saya. Melihat bulir-bulirnya yang sambung-menyambung menjadi satu, mendengar suara gemuruhnya yang menerpa kap diatas kepala, melihat kabut tipis yang ia sebabkan bersama sang AC…

Kenapa ya, baru sekarang saya jatuh cinta sama hujan?

Where have you been all my life??