c'est la vie

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will.

You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time.

You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken.

You'll fight with your best friend.

You'll blame a new love for things an old one did.

You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love.

So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

Don't be afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never begin.

Helpless

Akhir-akhir ini saya sangat lelah...

Lelah dengan pikiran saya yang 'sibuk' dan berlarian tak tentu arah, seperti bubaran layar tancep di Pelabuhan Ratu yang memutar film 'Babi Ngepet'.

Saya takut.

Saya takut saya tak punya waktu lagi.

Saya takut telah salah mengambil keputusan.

Saya takut menyakiti orang.

Saya takut kehilangan keluarga saya tanpa sempat membahagiakan mereka.

Saya takut waktu saya habis.

Saya takut sekali...

Tolong saya.

Speechless

"I don’t remember having ever met someone in my life I felt so close so quickly. Maybe we know each other from another time somewhere else in this Universe or another one."

"Really? Good thought."

"Maybe one of us was yin and the other yang, unity of opposites, heaven and earth absorbed by their appealing difference!"

"Maybe I was a queen and you're my slave, Oh no, that’s too kinky,… Maybe I was a sinner and you’re a saint. Hmm… This is better!"

"Some slave have married their queen.. They have escaped free of any concept in the cover of night into the desert only guided by their mutual passions and the golden track left by the shooting stars…"

"…..."

What should I say?

Just woke up...

Take a deep breath...

Feel the oxygen in the very first morning of my new cycling of year...

Open my cellphone....

"Jam 3 pagi dini hari 26 tahun yang lalu, seorang bayi perempuan mungil rambut ikal menjerit di keheningan malam, pertanda tasyakur dilahirkan ke dunia ini.

Hari ini bayi yang diberi nama Sita genap berumur 26 tahun, dan telah menjadi seorang yang dewasa kerena berlalunya waktu.

Sit, "SELAMAT ULANG TAHUN", semoga panjang umur, sehat-sehat selalu, murah rezki, cepat dapat jodoh yang baik. Amin!"

It was 2:51 AM.

SMS from the most beautiful and greatest woman on earth, my mom....